All these dates, times, and who did exactly what, when, how and why, …blah, blah, blah,,,, ALL FOR MY WELLNESS AND SAFETY? THIS IS CRAZY! I can’t sleep. THIS DOES NOT COMPUTE. FOR MY WELLNESS AND SAFETY? I was perfectly well and safe (and happy) until sheriff deputies decided for GOD KNOWS WHAT REASONABLE EXIGENT CIRCUMSTANCE, FORCIBLY ENTERED MY PROPERTY, MY HOME SETTING OFF MY SECURITY ALARM YET NEVER TOLD ME UNTIL I RETURNED HOME AND FOUND A BUSINESS CARD ON THE >>>> whoops, there I go again,over and over and over but it still doesn’t make sense…..WHAT AM I MISSING HERE? Why no telephone call prior or after the intrusion? Was it some kind of reconnaissance or exploratory search for something illegal that someone once again as intentionally fabricated to produce unwanted contact with deputies? Why was having a vehicle gate open apparently important? I need to find out what the RP Reporting Party, or rather REQUESTING PARTY is in this matter and what was relayed to deputies which might have……. WHAT THE FRACK WERE THEY THINKING?

…..so, out of curiosity I asked myself, “what was I doing on October 4th when deputies decided it best to completely destroy the only security and safety in my life which took many years to develop and achieve: THE PRIVACY OF MY HOME…..why? for what real reason(s)? …<over, and over, and over, …… why why why? > E N O U G H !

So what was I doing hundreds of miles away? Then that pesky smart ass inner voice says “you have a camera with hundreds of images of the last trip you haven’t even looked at yet – why not start there dumb ass?

Besides insulting me constantly, the little jerk is almost always correct about whatever the subject or situation, which is of course quite irritating. lol So I start flipping through the photos and find the first one for October 4th, 2024:

LOOK AT THE DATE: FRIDAY I could almost hear Homer Simpson’s voice:

“Stupid expensive phones don’t even know what day it was! duh!”

But wait, they auto update those right? Then it started to sink in … but if I left on Aug 11th a Sunday, then Aug 4th would be a Sunday….but…. TO THE INTERNET ROBBIN to look at a calendar.

A CALENDAR

Yes, haven’t had a calendar here for sometime. No point spending the money for one not used. Usually have my Casio digital watch on anyway but when the battery went out, just never got a new one. Haven’t worn it for months after the plastic band almost attached to my wrist after years of constant wearing – even when sleeping. Might want to see if it’s the same time I had to pee last night, or the night before, or the…….That watch was only off for a shower/bath and to clean the watch/band when it started smelling as bad as decomposing crickets! Maybe worse? lol

So, always had to have my watch until the desert. There was no reason for a watch on the desert because what was left of the Sun determined what I would or would not do. If it got cold, I’d go in and warm by the wood stove. The point is, I wasn’t still habitually looking at my watch because of some predetermined exact time to do one thing or another, ie, “gosh, 1900hrs better find something to eat” rather than asking, “am I really hungry?” “2100 hrs, better turn in” instead of “am I tired and ready for sleep?”.

I like sleep, enjoy sleep, need sleep, want sleep, but can’t sleep. Tried a prescription sleeping pill a couple times. Nothing. Sometimes almost there, then that SHOCK AWAKENING and then back to sleep. You know those spontaneous “whole body jerks” when falling asleep or just after? Just one big jolt and you’re wide awake but wondering “what the heck just happened?” Respiration might be up, heart pounding, everything seems to be on alert, vision, hearing, it’s like (or the same thing I don’t know) the “fight flight response”, but in a couple of seconds, no big deal, everything’s cool and back to sleep. Was it a thought? Something just before sliding into restful sleep “pokes” your sub conscience mind where some connection seemed perfectly fitted between two divergent contradicting somethings……but for a split second seemed obvious….. murmur something about …. and drift into an apprehensive sleep waiting for the next “body jolt”.

I’ve got so many pages of notes around here and questions – – so many just repeats of the same stuff…

My best to you and yours, Lew