July 29, 2024 in “La Tah Law Law”….

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Feels like some other country
Where government makes up crime
Persecuting the clearly innocent
Has been happening here for some time

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My best to you and yours, Lew

Come-on, seriously, who won the bet as to how long I could actually keep my big fat blogging mouth via fingers, still? Well, at least better than under a few hours or something, because although getting a little calmer about this incident, unanswered questions have been nagging the heck out of me since October 20th 2024.

SO I’m going to qualify some of my previous sleep deprived rants about what happened with a reluctant (albeit perhaps poor illustration, but trust it makes the point) recognition that I could PERHAPS, be looking at this only from THIS PARTICULAR VICTIM’S PERSPECTIVE and not giving enough credence to the possibility that a series of failures, errors, negligence, (and in this case perhaps even including malice by other actors outside the Sheriff’s Office), etc., were all just coincidentally aligned and combined which created an extremely dangerous and potentially fatal incident with the Mariposa Co Sheriff’s Deputies that they (the MCSO) never intended.

(Thanks Rich – and I agree whole heartily – BUT to an EXTREMELY LIMITED point.)

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Here’s my (I admit) somewhat confusing analogy to a mitigating factor in my “off the cuff reaction” to what I contend was a violation of my rights to privacy under the US Constitution. Essentially I believe it comes down to; what were the deputies actually thinking they were doing at the moment the gate chain/lock were cut and they entered my home compound? And, how did they come to acquire that perception of what they were doing and why? Basically, what information had been previously furnished from both 1) the MCSO and 2) the previous reporting party/parties actually requesting this highly suspicious COMMUNITY CARE DOCTRINE based “Wellness Check” to see if I needed some assistance? (Which does permit a warrant less entry and search for any injured, incapacitated, or deceased individuals, etc., upon reasonable exigent circumstances leading them to believe such situation existed at my home and surroundings on October 4th.)

Yup, got off easy again this time without the LAME version! lol (I’d really be all over the place)

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spoofed; spoofing; spoofs

hoax

Hoaxed; hoaxing; hoaxes

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MY BEST TO YOU AND YOURS, LEW

Best sleep since October 20^th, 2024 when I discovered my roll up garage door open to the header again (but still don’t know how or why for so long). Feel much better, but this is far from over.

Thank you Dear Heavenly Father for assisting, protecting and guiding me through darkness and fear of YET ANOTHER undeserved, unjustified, extremely painful, life disrupting, almost unbearable, and once again potentially fatal, confrontation with the Mariposa County Sheriff’s Office. Amen.

Was this another “SWAT” choreographed into effect by a politically motivated, unfeeling, immoral, malicious group of far left haters of Donald Trump (Severe TDS Trump Derangement Syndrome) and anyone who avidly supports him? (Of which I am most certainly “guilty”.)

Time to focus on taking care of myself and Liz. Please excuse my liberal use of bad language while attempting to explain and express my outrage and disbelief, but any further discussion of the incident is unnecessary, at least here.

I pray this NEVER HAPPENS to ANYONE ever again.

My best to you and yours, Lew

My best to you and yours, a disgusted Lew

What was the reason Mariposa County Deputies wanted to open my large front gate (whereas the law is quite specific about facilitating entry by the least intrusive measures and limiting property damage while protecting personal property. (but they didn’t even close the garage door or secure the breached fence.

All this naturally predicated upon there being a legitimate exigent circumstance to warrant-lessly enter the property that didn’t exist. Think the term is reasonableness of the entry and purpose. Hummm, truck, trailer and dog gone.

Neighbors could have explained to deputies how long that 16’ wide garage door was actually open (due to the sheriff’s 17+ day delay in notifying me of the “forced entry” incident and I had to ask for that information myself, the Captain never offered any explanation other than postal carrier, USPS, and an open kitchen/garage door – which again, was impossible according to the alarm event log. So, where’s the reasonable necessity to forcibly enter my home, etc? Did someone pull another John Molidar on me and call saying something outlandish to get the Sheriff’s Office over here? We’ll see. So much cross referencing to do.

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How did that garage door go up again? I’ve been missing a garage remote control for years, keep hoping I will find it in the garage, but so far no luck. But who would have my garage door opener and want to open my garage while I was away? Just doesn’t make sense.

Well, it certainly appears that a reasonable cause did not exist, unless there’s something not being said out loud? Hummmm, that’s sure happened to me many, many times. Especially when perfectly legal with a permit and all. Even the firemen saw what was going on, but legally can not divulge the reporting parties name. But they knew.

So why were they there at that particular time? Because they knew I was coming home sometime on a Sunday after an 8-1/2 to 9hr drive from northern Nevada. They just had the wrong Sunday! (Added another week for some more digging/excavation because of the good weather. A little over 9 weeks gone.).

How could they know though? I told no one which Sunday, even my neighbor didn’t know. Heck, we haven’t talked for quite some time now (weeks before I left in August) because of complete opposite political differences which is no big deal because I understand many people have TDS (Trump Derangement Syndrome) and prefer Kamala. Confuses me, but hey, it’s still America now and people can vote for whatever candidate they feel most confident about leading this Country through one of it toughest times since it’s founding.

WILD COINCIDENCE!

You know, when I think about it, it was that west neighbor (who is an avid recreational vehicle enthusiast and I couldn’t even guess how many miles he’s traveled), who advised that for my Nevada trips Sunday was the best travel day because of the low density of traffic and work routines, traffic metering, etc..

You know what? I think he is absolutely correct (on this – lol) because I’ve always left and arrived on a Sunday and for the most part never had any trouble, well, just getting lost on the desert and stuck during a flash flood and spent 4 days 3 nights trying to get out! Yup, quite and adventure and I wouldn’t trade it now for anything.

SO WHY DIDN’T DEPUTIES JUST TALK TO MY WEST NEIGHBOR?

Looked like Deputy Green walked up there and back, and Deputy Tan drove up that direction just to turn around, (and no doubt just a coincidence that the law requires a law enforcement officer to notify the reporting party if there had been and accident or death, that way the reporting party is not fretting about what actually happened. My neighbors never called about the open garage for 6 weeks or so, I don’t think anyone was really concerned about that, we have a good neighborhood and I thought I had a secure fence and home. Maybe my neighbor was visiting family as they often do.

So I just don’t understand why the Deputy Sheriff’s didn’t just talk to that neighbor (if home) or other neighbors that could have easily explained where I had been going for the last 3-1/2 years? Heck, I’ve mentioned it on the website too with images and videos.

Wait, but if they did, (talk to neighbors) that would mean the deputies knew the approximate time and day I would be returning. They knew when I would be coming home and needed to get those patrol units concealed within the compound (plenty of room for that as they knew from their walk around and video taping) for their surprise welcome home party and then either beat the hell out of me, or kill me for:

(come on now all together) ….

For contempt of COP and resisting arrest! Perfect.

No, that can’t be right, if the Mariposa County Deputy Sheriff’s actually talked to him to get that travel itinerary, or find out about the open garage, why not just ask for my cell number or maybe a key for the front gate? Heck that neighbor has had my cell number since I got the phone because of the remote areas I go – my family got that for me for use with that beautiful alluvial fan in Nevada!

Nah, if he saw cops parked around my property; breaking into the compound, and then setting off the burglar alarm…..surely he would have called me — right? I mean petty differences in politics should not come between neighbors and their health and safety, yeah?

Yeah, that couldn’t be it, I’ll keep thinking. There’s a reason those cops wanted inside the compound through that gate with their vehicles and were getting annoyed with the entry time, complications getting through the main gate, the exterior (and later interior) cameras, and of course the surprise audible alarm which probably left a Hershey streak in their tidy whities. And the pressure of what to do now…quick! Make it look like we really care, look around outside some more like we’re looking for a body. Lol You didn’t go to the bottom of the hill! There could have been an army of dead bodies stacked around there!lol

Actually deputies should have been looking in Nevada and every single neighbor could have told them that, especially my west neighbor who also knew what day: Sunday.

That must have really thrown a wrench into the planned program of the sheriff deputies

I need to look over those videos again, deputies kept going back to that main gate fence lock even after verifying it was a problem and studying that anti-theft sleeve collar set up….. could they have been trying to surreptitiously use a key?

What key? Or something like a lock pick? Deputy Green was walking around with something cupped in his right hand concealing it from the cameras. I’ve got a semi good quality image of it, need to enlarge a bit. I thought it was one of those Tactical Pens that doubles as a glass breaker, but who knows any more, right?

Hum. Naw, my neighbor returned the key he had a long time ago – Deputy probably had a lock pick.

Yup, those deputies wanted that large gate open for some reason, sure hope it wasn’t for that body bag theory? At least not mine!! lol

Oh well, the truth always finds it’s way into the light.

May God Bless and assist all those suffering without a legitimate soul and/or conscience who intentionally, and severely, injures fellow neighbors, figuratively speaking, not necessarily literally.

What a world yeah?

My best to you and yours, Lew

“THIS DOES NOT COMPUTE” “THIS DOES NOT COMPUTE” WARNING, WARNING, WARNING

WILL ROBINSON”

A warrantless search of a home may no longer take

place solely under the “community caretaking”

exception. On August 12, 2019, the California

Supreme Court in People v. Ovieda, ruled the

“community caretaking” exception does not apply

in the absence of exigency.

STRANGE TIMES WE’RE LIVING IN YEAH? PLEASE START BELOW AUDIO, THANK YOU, Lew

AND YOU WERE THERE……

I HAVE A _SHORT QUESTION……

COULD MARIPOSA COUNTY SHERIFF DEPUTIES MAKE EXIGENCY ALL BY THEMSELVES JUST FOR THEMSELVES WITHOUT ME BY: FORCIBLY ENTERING MY PROPERTY AND SETTING OFF MY BURGLAR ALARM THEN WALKING AROUND MY HOUSE WITH WEAPONS DRAWN LOOKING IN EVERY ROOM OF MY HOUSE AND VIDEO TAPING ALL MY PERSONAL PROPERTY IN PLAIN SIGHT OSTENSIBLY THERE JUST CHECKING TO MAKE SURE I WAS OK AND NOT INJURED OR NEEDING ANY KIND OF ASSISTANCE BECAUSE I WASN’T EVEN THERE AND ROUTINELY FOR THE LAST THREE AND A HALF YEARS HAVE BEEN CAMPING ON THE HIGH DESERT WITH MY GSD LIZ AND EVERY SINGLE NEIGHBOR ON MY CUL DE SAC KNOWS IS OFTEN FOR A MONTH OR MORE AND MY POSTAL CARRIER IS ALSO AWARE BECAUSE WE HAVE TALKED ABOUT HOW FULL MY MAILBOX GETS WHEN I’M AWAY A FEW TIMES USPS HAS HELD SIGN-FOR PACKAGES FOR ME AT THE POST OFFICE UNTIL I CALLED WHEN I GOT HOME; BUT THE SHERIFF CAPTAIN TOLD ME THE DEPUTIES SAID BECAUSE MY MAILBOX WAS FULL MY POSTAL CARRIER WAS CONCERNED (TOLD HIM THAT DID NOT MAKE ANY KIND OF SENSE) AND THE FACT MY PICKUP TRUCK (WHICH HAS NEVER BEEN IN THE GARAGE ANYWAY….) WAS NOT THERE, AND MY 16′ ROLL UP GARAGE DOOR THAT WAS OPEN THE DEPUTIES (THAT WERE SO CONCERNED ABOUT MY SAFETY AND PROPERTY BEING SAFE) NEVER CLOSED THAT GARAGE DOOR TO PROTECT MY EXPOSED PERSONAL PROPERTY, AND THEY NEVER CLOSED OR REPAIRED MY GATE THEY BROKE THROUGH TO ENTER THE PREMISES AROUND THE HOUSE AND LEFT A SHERIFF BUSINESS CARD ON THE GATE ACCESSIBLE TO THE PUBLIC WHICH IN HAND WRITING ADVERTISED THAT MY HOME AND PROPERTY WERE UN-SECURE, WERE THE DEPUTIES ALSO ONLY TRYING TO SAVE ME MONEY BY TURNING OFF TWO AUTO TIMED LIGHTS I SET UP BEFORE I LEFT OVER 2 MONTHS AGO BEFORE?, WHY DIDN’T THEY DO A COMPLETE PROPERTY SEARCH OUTSIDE MY HOME BEFORE BREAKING IN AND WHY SO MANY DRIVE-BYS JUST BEFORE I LEFT FOR NEVADA HAVE SEEN THAT IN 13 YEARS AND WHAT POSSIBLE REASONS EVEN REMOTELY SUGGEST I WAS HOME AND GAVE THEM THE CRAZY IDEA THAT ……. I OR MY DOG ……LIZ…..WERE ….EV–zzZZ EN innnnnn …zzzzz our ….Zzzzz jpm,wjem de[‘itoeszzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz bork into oujr…ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzz…..(snoring)zzzzz nevzzzer toldzzzzunttil zzzzz17 dazzzzzz laattte zzzzzzzzz

(GROGGY MUTTERING WHILE ASLEEP……WHY DIDN’T THOSE JACKASSES JUST TELEPHONE FIRST …..SNORE frigg’n idiots……_)

hi, me again, start the below audio now, thanks

SHUSSS….HHHH (wHispering to be quite)

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My best to you and yours, Lew

ni-nite

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REMEMBER THAT CRAZY STUFF ON “LOST IN SPACE?”

WELL, I FEEL “LOST IN MARIPOSA” THOUGHT IT WAS STILL PART OF THE U.S.A.

HUH, GO FIGURE

NEVER SURRENDER TO GOVERNMENT THUGS AND CRIMINALS!

or

YOU AND YOUR FAMILY COULD BE NEXT!

“Nite Lew”

“Goodnight Will……and thank you SO MUCH – YOU TOO ROBOT”

A KID IS SITTING ON THE SIDEWALK CURB STIRRING A BUCKET OF SHIT.

A CURIOUS MARIPOSA COUNTY FIREMAN WALKS OVER AND ASKS, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

KID, WITHOUT LOOKING UP SAYS, STIRRING A BUCKET OF SHIT

THE FIREMAN ASKS FOR WHAT?

THE KID SAYS I’M GOING TO MAKE SOMETHING

FIREMAN: WHAT THE HELL CAN YOU MAKE WITH A BUCKET OF SHIT

THE KID LOOKS UP RECOGNIZES THE UNIFORM AND SAYS I’M GOING TO MAKE A NOSY LYING MARIPOSA CO FIREMAN

OUTRAGED THE FIREMAN SEES A MARIPOSA CO SHERIFF PATROL VEHICLE DOWN THE STREET AND WAVES HIM OVER AND EXPLAINS THE SITUATION

THE DEPUTY WALKS OVER AND ASKS: WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

KID SAYS: STIRRING A BUCKET OF SHIT

DEPUTY: AND WHAT DO YOU PLAN TO DO WITH THAT BUCKET OF SHIT

KID LOOKS UP AND SEES THAT IT IS A DEPUTY SHERIFF THIS TIME AND SAYS

I’M GOING TO MAKE, I’M GOING TO MAKE, I’M GOING TO MAKE A NOSY LYING MARIPOSA CO FIREMAN

THE DEPUTY STARTS LAUGHING LOUDLY AND SAYS, I THOUGHT SO YOU DON’T HAVE ENOUGH GUTS TO SAY DEPUTY SHERIFF

KID LOOKS UP AND SAYS: NO, I JUST DON’T HAVE ENOUGH SHIT

There is another fact regarding this “wellness check” gone wrong that I am compelled to explain and share.

GETTING ON THE ROAD

On August 11^th, 2024, a little after 0100hrs Sunday morning we (with Liz my 10 year old long hair GSD -German Shepherd Dog) were starting our 10^th trip to the Nevada high desert. The trailer is usually parked at a slight angle in the driveway in front of the garage to facilitate easier loading and unloading. Unfortunately, even at that slight angle (to permit passing the rig when truck not hitched), has proven to be quite tricky and on this particular morning I hit the left fence gate post (I think) with the rear right trailer brake light assembly while backing out towards the street.

CAN’T SEE MY REAR!

Backing up with a 16’ trailer is difficult enough for me, but uphill when I couldn’t even see the rear of the trailer in relation to the posts (without side mirror glances) is a big pain in the….. neck and shoulders, in addition to the ASS! Lol Didn’t take much time to get squared away and on the road for the 430 mile drive that usually takes between 8-1/2 to 9 hours.

PLEASE BE QUIET! I’M DOING THE DEPARTURE CHECK LIST

While driving I perform a little LAST CHANCE TO TURN AROUND CHECK LIST in my head with two of the last items being: setting the house alarm and closing the big garage door. I realized just before Waterford I couldn’t precisely remember closing the garage door and considering the difficulty in backing uphill with the trailer and having that little accident with the fence post, wondered….. was the garage door indeed closed?

ANNOYING LITTLE VOICE OFTEN CORRECT

I lightly hit the brakes and started to slow the rig down looking for a good turn around spot….. “naw, I’m sure it was closed – I would have noticed”, and resumed pressing the accelerator. ‘Are you sure – absolutely positive it was closed?” (Don’t you hate that nagging inner voice that’s always right?) …… slowing down with the brakes again…. “Pretty sure…I mean, I would have noticed while locking the main gate” …..back on the accelerator….… then that pain in the ass internal voice whispered like creepy Joe: “Maybe you were distracted with the fender bender and forgot to close it, but if you want to spend the entire trip second guessing whether or not it was indeed closed and secure, go ahead be my guest.”

LITTLE FUCKER!

Slowed, turned around at the first available spot and headed back to Lake Don Pedro. What did I find? Garage door was wide open. I mean to the top of the header which I never open to that point which indicated something impeded the normal closing causing it to open to the fullest extent or something activated the motor.. Little fucker was right. Hit the remote, watched as the door closed all the way to the floor and stopped, and was thankful I listened to that little smart ass voice residing deep in the gray matter. Resumed the trip happy that I had made the right choice in turning back.

OCTOBER 20^th 2024 RETURN HOME

When I saw the garage door wide open I was extremely perplexed, what the hell happened? Approaching the main gate I saw a white Mariposa County Sheriff business card stuck on top of the anti-theft lock sleeve. On the back was hand written:

“Stopped by for a welfare check. Cut the chain on the gate facing Espuela. Your garage door was unlocked so I locked it before leaving”

Walking into the garage everything look fine but my kitchen/garage door was locked and I couldn’t open it to go in to the kitchen. (Something I will never do again is occasionally leaving that door unlocked for convenience when coming back with groceries and such incorrectly believing the closed roll up garage door, cameras, audible burglar alarm and over 13 years of peace should be enough security.)

I looked at the Deputy’s card again “….garage door was unlocked so I locked it before leaving”

Had I misunderstood the card’s message walking up to the house believing the deputy had closed the roll up door before leaving….and somehow it had opened again? Thought to myself, OK, there is a problem with the garage door outside stationary controller, car remote or the motor itself.

(Have heard it is extremely unlikely, but sometimes another remote can activate another similar system. I do know that someone in this area has a remote that controls one of my ceiling fans sometimes. I’ll be watching TV and all of a sudden the fan will either come on or go off (never the lights-just the fan). I would imagine I’ve probably done the same thing to the other fan users some where. Also people have been known to drive off with another vehicle believing it to be theirs with an ignition key that indeed was the same as the other vehicle. Extremely rare, but it does happen.)

At 1047hrs

I put the key in the door lock (I do lock it sometimes) and opened the door but entering the kitchen (there was no “beep beep beep” count down before the alarm went off) so I approached the alarm control pad to check the status but it had a blank screen and apparently no power.

“Fucking PG&E power outages!” I mumbled to myself as similar things have happened in the past. They kill the power and backup batteries could eventually deplete and alarm monitor goes out. Looked up at the electric stove LED and it was also flashing a power loss code.

When the house alarm went off (1047 hrs) while I was unloading the truck/trailer and bringing stuff in the house it actually scared the heck out of me (lol) so I went through the process of getting that all squared away and everything appeared it was going to be fine. I was still honestly appreciative for what I understood at the time and actually thrilled with the prospect this was like an Olive Branch from the Sheriff’s Office in putting past differences behind us and they actually did me a favor! so at 1109 hrs 22 minutes after arriving home I sent the following email to the Deputy’s email address on the card:

Thank you – thank you – so much!  When did this occur?  You know, when I first left in August, I was almost to Waterford but couldn’t remember closing the large roll up garage door so I returned and sure enough it was open.  Closed it with the remote and re-started the trip.  Not sure what happened this second time.  Would appreciate a call  at your convenience.  Again, thank you!  Lew

October 20^th, 2024 1109hrs

Not receiving a response by Tuesday I called the Mariposa County Sheriff’s Office and briefly explained the situation but was told the Deputy was off duty and would be backer by Wednesday and would probably notify me then. OK, thanks.

On Friday still not hearing anything I called the Mariposa County dispatch and tried to explain what was going on – but received a completely different response from the dispatcher who seemed uncooperative and wanted to pick a verbal fight.

You see, I normally talk loud anyway, I’m not mad just talk loud (maybe from all the gun range shooting I don’t know), but when this dispatcher told me the deputy was off duty, I tried to explain that I had been told twice already that the Deputy was off duty but before I had finished the dispatcher sternly said “DON’T GET MAD AT ME”, I laughed and said I’m not mad but I’ve been told – she cut me off as I recall to say it was my volume or tone of voice …..

At that very moment, although I still had many unanswered questions about what had happened at my home on October 4^th, and wasn’t mad when I called dispatch I was just frustrated with an apparent run around…. I now knew SOMETHING WAS WRONG – VERY WRONG and told her something like never mind I’ll call the sheriff or under sheriff and hung up. NOW I was beginning to get real concern about what was really going on with this incident.

(I honestly believe that dispatcher was purposefully trying to get me to say something on that recorded line that would be inappropriate and could be used against me (WHAT ?) — I felt like she was trying to hide something, but without a transcript or audio recording to go over like they have, it’s just memory, and my memory was she was uncooperative and defensive about something but I didn’t know what.

Why would I be getting the run around for wanting more information about a matter I had already emailed the responsible deputy that I was appreciative?

Called the number for the Sheriff/Under sheriff and administration personnel but lost the connection somehow while waiting for them to pick up. Tried again (you know the phone listing hell), spoke with a nice woman and explained the situation, she said she would put me through to the Captain, rang,rang…. Message machine….left the message. Spoke with the Captain later, nice conversation and I told him that I felt something was actually wrong after the dispatcher accused me of being mad. I laughed and told him I wasn’t mad before but only frustrated that I couldn’t get answers to pertinent questions. I told him I was pleased with how the deputy removed the chain without cutting the lock itself, but he could have left the card somewhere else where people on the street could read it and know my property was unsecured. I told him about the alarm going off and scaring me, and was charging the batteries to get it back on line, he was cordial and all that, but I had the feeling he new more than he was relaying.

I told him I didn’t even know when this occurred and he told me October 4^th 2024. I asked if the check was made from my calling the SO for a house check or what. He said my postal carrier requested a well fare check because of the circumstances of the mail not being picked up and the garage door being opened. I explained my position on both. Told him my postal carriers are all aware of my extended trips to Nevada because even though I purchased a very large locking mailbox, it still gets full with mail. I said she was a sweetheart and very much aware of my traveling situation. I told him my truck and trailer were usually in front of the garage, my dog was with me in Nevada…. I told him things were not making sense. He said he wouldn’t want to comment on anything without speaking to the deputy involved, I apologized and agreed that I wasn’t trying to put him in a bad situation but that was precisely why I was getting frustrated and concerned because the deputy hadn’t contacted me in the last five days. The Captain said he would check into the matter.

After talking with the Captain, a horrible feeling started in my stomach but was connected to my brain which had been churning on this since I came home and saw the garage door open. That horrible connection between my brain and stomach was VERY FUCKING FAMILIAR…..I WAS BEING DECEIVED AGAIN BY PEOPLE WHO WERE CONCEALING IMPORTANT FACTS AS TO WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED AT MY HOME WHILE I WAS OUT OF STATE.

FLASHBACK TO MERCED PROBLEM

Back in 1986 I also spoke with a Captain at the Merced Sheriff’s Office who told me he understood my situation and was investigating my allegations but I had to give him enough time to clear things up and to remain at my house for a few more hours while he got things taken care of for me. My Father was still alive and present when that call came in and was leaning over listening to the conversation.

When I hung up from talking with the Captain, I looked at my Father and said “HE IS LYING TO ME AND I DO NOT TRUST HIM”. I called an attorney and followed his advice and would not have been granted a service connected disability retirement from law enforcement had I waited for the captain’s proclaimed “help is on the way” talk.

What was that captain really doing when he asked me to wait at home while he helped clear my name so I could return to work? Assisting County Counsel prepare an immediate termination of employment letter. There is so so so much more to all of that past stuff, and I’m digressing and upsetting myself again already. You see, that sort of painful shit never leaves your heart or mind, you just try to ignore it and move on, but when something similar happens……

You know, they fired me for doing exactly what I was supposed to do – enforce the law, but if you enforce it against a friend of the THEN sheriff, you had big serious problems.

There are so many things they did to me in order to cover up and conceal what they had and were doing in Merced. I even had a lieutenant tell me confidentially they were hoping to put enough stress on me that I would commit suicide. Had them before.

Easy to say, but when those criminal law enforcement officers had things printed in the paper about me they claimed were true that had ALREADY BEEN PROVEN FALSE the questioning of whether I might be better off dead was a reoccurring argument with myself for a long time. Should I just be done with this? I know I’m right, but the pain was getting to the point that almost anything would be better, even hurting my Mom, Dad, brother……maybe briefly just to get away from the constant pain, might be better for them to not watching me suffer? Yeah, maybe it would be better for them too if I just ended everything?

The county painted me as a bad officer and the reason for the illegal termination of my job and violation of my Peace officer bill or rights….my US Constitutional Rights, they didn’t care, they just wanted me gone and if I would do it myself….PERFECT FOR THEM.

When I did file for retirement the county then tried everything they could to stop that by saying I was a fine, intelligent hard working officer who could still do the job and should return to work.

YOU HAVE GOT TO BE FUCKING KIDDING ME?

So, even though it is not a lot, that honorable service connected disability retirement has assisted greatly in my (our -that suffering child inside) decision to stay in this world as a living breathing, thinking, caring……. creation of God, and the longer I stay, the more they will pay for a retirement that should never have been required in the first place if they obeyed the laws they were supposed to be enforcing.

They hit and attacked me unscrupulously with everything in their government positions of power would permit, and believe me, a county sheriff has a lot of authority.

First administrative hearing – I WON. County Supervisors – lost (some were badge carrying special deputies of the then sheriff) Superior Court – visiting judge (all Merced County Judges voluntarily disqualified themselves) – I WON! Then the sheriff appealed to the California State Appellate Court – I WON! But the sheriff wanted to appeal to the state supreme court but eventually retired under a 21 count accusation by the County Grand Jury. Gosh, I could sit here for several hours going over this which might explain why it is difficult to talk with some folks. Lol

So what was I doing during all this? Hanging on to a roller coaster ride that is truly hard to even imagine for anyone unless they had been there on the ride. I still feel like it was another person’s life that I look back on, and I guess in some ways that is true as that personality is dead and gone, and all I have now is what’s left and what I can augment too it in the future.

Check it out…..those bad actors did EVERYTHING THEY COULD TO COMPLETELY DESTROY ME AND MY LIFE but failed – when the truth finally made it into court and guilty parties causing the trouble were no longer in control. But there’s another court, another judgment we will all face one day, for those of you trapped right now and feel there’s no way out, hold on, there is.

Although only a minuscule amount as compared to WHAT OUR TRUE PRESIDENT DONALD J TRUMP as suffered, I know very well what it is like to have weaponized government wrongly used against you. It’s a process without feeling, sympathy, concern, or fear – it’s like a massive mechanical monster but operated by people, and if the wrong people are in control that monster can be unleashed on innocent citizens to punish, control or completely erase. TRUMP WOULD UNDERSTAND EXACTLY WHAT I AM FEELING RIGHT NOW AND WHY. I WANT A PRESIDENT WHO KNOWS THE DANGERS OF ALLOWING OUR COUNTRY TO BE RUN BY EVIL DOERS.

And for those who couldn’t hold on against such evil attacks by spineless cowards, liars and cheats, well, I understand why because I almost joined them. I only pray it worked for them somehow, and that GOD UNDERSTOOD. Unfortunately, if an honest good person did collapse under the weight of evil those evil responsibles will only use that suicide as evidence they (the bad guys) were really the good guys….”see, they killed themselves because of the guilt” over their crime, when in actuality they were innocent people that just couldn’t withstand the pain these FUCKING MONSTERS IN GOVERNMENT PUT ON THEM ONLY TO CONCEAL THEIR OWN MISDEEDS!

OK, that’s it for now, I’ve got a headache now – lol

My best to you and yours, Lew

PS: Sorry about the blah blah blah and major diversions from the point – which was that after talking with the Captain and feeling that sickening feeling developing between my brain and stomach (about the previous captain just wanting me to wait at home while being set up with an immediate termination letter), my priority became to get my systems back on line and figure out what happened. (aka last photos posted) I am still learning some details but sick and tired of being deceived and lied to by people who only want to cover up truth to “protect the county”. Really? The county is not a living breathing human being with feelings but something created to serve citizens with feelings and make their lives better. Something, or someone, sure needs to straighten you folks out because for all the hard work I’ve been doing for the last 3-1/2 years to save what I have left for a happy life ending, you’ve thrown me into another ugly prison with next year’s date being 1987. God have mercy on you for what you do to innocent people.

People who can not obey the law themselves certainly should not be enforcing it against others.

Numb.

After all the screaming, cussing, swearing, and yes, even crying, this blender like cycling of emotions inevitably leaves me exhausted, cold (temperature wise) and emotionally numb. Not angry. Not necessarily sad or depressed just numb and going through the ashes of an emotional fire, that once again, temporarily ravished my life. Ahhhhh, and that’s key…. T E M P O R A R I L Y.

Way too many people fail to see this during crisis and make the long term decision of suicide for a short term temporary situation – and that’s another terrifying aspect of this, expecting even more pain to follow rather than relief because of the cycle. During the triggering crisis or trauma, when something might suggest relief…. they fail to see that the “light at the end of the tunnel” IS THEIR ESCAPE FROM THE DARKNESS AND INTO THE LIGHT and is rapidly approaching but have been so negatively conditioned to expect the worst, believe the light at the end of the tunnel is only another approaching train hauling pain and discomfort – so they stop that (with what they feel at the time is their only option for escape) with suicide.

SOUNDS GOOD

Have never been much of a bath person, prefer a hot shower, but lately have taken more hot baths than I have in the last few years. I can understand the medicinal benefits, (relaxing sore muscles, tendons, ligaments, etc.) but is there an emotional – psychological component also?

Enveloped in a comfortable, secure and soothing clear fluid environment with the body’s core temperature constantly maintained. Wonder if it touches some deep and UN-rememorible experience of our first temporary home…… being in the womb prior to birth?

FOUND THEM! Between the bed blanket and sheet and I CAN SEE CLEARLY AGAIN!

Lol reminds me of that song remember….? Johnny Nash? That up lifting thought of all negative things clearing away?

I can see clearly now the rain is gone

I can see all obstacles in my way

Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind

It’s gonna be a bright (bright)

Bright (bright) sunshiny day

It’s gonna be a bright (bright)

Bright (bright) sunshiny day

Maybe make this a door chime? lol

Better yet one of those “pull to activate” FIRE ALARMS but instead of a blaring fire alarm the sound system would blast “I can see clearly now” by Johnny Nash. lol

Guess I need to purchase a copy since it might be a positive break (and potential brake) to this unpleasant emotional roller coaster. I know from experience there will be an eventual end to the outrage, anger, depression, angst and unhappiness, etc. but unfortunately, will be triggered again by something I deeply believe is a clear wrong against me personally by the government. What good is our Constitution, Bill Of Rights and Rule of Law if “THE RULERS DON’T OBEY THE VERY LAW THEY ENFORCE ON CITIZENS?”

Heck, this song could be an enjoyable “WELCOME BACK” tune to accompany, maybe even facilitate, that anticipated healing process?

Yeah, a pulled fire alarm that plays Johnny Nash, I like it.

Please realize, if it were true that I was as dangerous an individual as these unscrupulous bully liars have said out loud for others to hear and whisper in this community for decades, (most of them democrats anyway) well, let’s just say they wouldn’t be here to continue such slander, libel and just plain ugly behavior, because I would have eliminated those sources of my righteous anger and pain long ago.

But I am not, so they are permitted to continue doing the same crap over and over – no doubt to many others as well.

BUT now, illegally searching my home (while away attempting to salvage what I have left of my life as a senior citizen) with their weapons drawn under the guise they were only breaking into my home to check on my well being? Thanks, but please don’t bother yourselves with such activity again, unless you wait until you can’t see through the window glass because of the flies!

Perhaps later, going back to the womb room for a soak! lol

My best to you and yours, Lew

I TRIED THREE TIMES CUTTING DOWN THE SIZE OF THE VIDEO, BUT STILL TOO LARGE, SO I GUESS THESE STILL FRAMES ARE JUST TEASERS. GUESS I BETTER GET SOME RELEASE OF LIABILITY FORMS IF SOMEONE SPENDS THE NIGHT?

MY BEST TO YOU AND YOURS, LEW